Imposter Syndrome is pretty much what it sounds like – feeling like an imposter at something you’re doing and usually succeeding in. It’s an internal struggle rather than an external one.
This is showing up in almost every aspect of my life right now and it is TOUGH to shake.
It’s at my job, my hobbies, my relationships, my side hustles.
I think it’s hitting me way harder this year because there are a LOT of things going on right now. We’re ramping up for busy season at work. My reading has NOT been very genre-diverse lately. I’m planning a freaking wedding. I’m now deep into editing my book that I’ve been working on for 4 years straight.
I gotta cut myself some slack is what I’m saying.
But, that’s the thing about imposter syndrome. It makes you feel bad for relaxing, cutting yourself slack, and even just learning.
So, I’m taking things one day at a time. Especially with my job. There’s a lot I’m still learning and I am in a profession that generally expects failure and learning on the go. But, uh, I hate failing. Like…a lot. So, I’m trying to get over that bit.
Okay, but how’s the book?
I’m currently editing Chapter 6 of 25. Not gonna lie it is SLOOOOW going. I’m starting to wonder if my July deadline is going to be enough. I’m still truckin’ though! The changes I’m making feel right and I think will add a lot of dimension to the story. At least, that’s what I’m hoping for. I’m trying to push it from 62k to 80-85k words (250 pages to 320 ish).
I’ve also started plotting out a new novel, which is fun. It’s vastly different than Witch of the Woods, so I think that’s why I’m able to do both. I’m just waiting on a plot. As some would say, I’m working off of vibes. No plot, only vibes.
Happy Writing!
Rachel
Subtle Stories 